Welcome all to my blog! This is my first attempt at this peculiar endeavour so do bear with me, I'm venturing out into a new domain here and it makes me feel extremely vulnerable so please be kind! I promise I will get better ; )
Well I guess if you've looked at the 'about me' section on this website you already know a little about me and my background, but for those of you that haven't, I will start by saying I'm a recluse by nature. I love being on my own and the natural world is my medicine. Ok that piece of information was NOT on the 'about me' section! I don't think many people would want to hear that side about a person, not very wise perhaps but somehow the world of blogging seems to allow people to be who they really are, I don't know about you but I find it quite refreshing. My aim with this blog is to let you know the personal aspects of myself as well as my work, and to somehow retain my pride in the process!
I'm very much an introvert, I find being around people for extended periods of time exhausting. Don't misunderstand though, I do like people! Just in small doses! I remember while growing up, all I wanted to do is play with toy animals or pretend to be one myself. When I was old enough my mother told me of a time when I was in a play school during summer holidays. When she came to pick me up at then end of the day the minders took her aside and told her they were "concerned about me". I didn't want to play and interact with the other kids, all I wanted to do is be by myself and play with my faithful animal toys in the mud... All. Day. Long! Bless my mum, she didn't know what to do with me. But the older I got the more interested in other people I became and made friends with my future primary class chums. Albeit our games soon revolved around that of animal origin! So if your reading this and have a child who sounds similar, give them all the time and space they need to grow. They'll get there!
Ok, so now I'm in my thirties, friends have come and gone. But the one friend that has stayed with me is that of the natural world. Always there when I need her, and I try to do the same in return.
I've had a variety of different jobs, from working in floristry, retail, the animal care industry, catering, courier and domiciliary care... It's strange how life happens to you and you forget all about your dreams and aspirations. Sometimes you remember them for a short while, then life hits you again, and again, and again!
Then there's adding the fact that you don't think you're good enough, those negative thoughts we know all too well, little niggling thoughts that get louder and louder as time passes, taking over you when you attempt to live your dream... " You're not good enough to make it as a photographer". "Its such a competitive business." "Nobody cares about the little people". and so on and on it goes...
Well if that is indeed the future truth in my case, I have decided I wont give up just yet. I still have some fight left in me.
So that's the end of my first blog post. I realise a little short perhaps, but I tend to keep things short and sweet. That may change and develop as my experience with blogging continues.
If anyone has read this post I'm humbled and honoured that you have taken the time to do so.
Please feel free to comment or ask any questions you may have. I'm not sure when the next post will be, definitely within the near future.
Until next time...